when I fell
Please call me a coward ... loser ..
or whatever you call
because here I am slumped ..
and almost helpless ..
as if I was alone and almost fell off ..
I was a coward ...
even I can not fight this feeling of love
feeling shared by all human beings ..
I dare not even dream to be happy
as if the dark world behind these walls
and as if I was afraid to face this future
O God give me your instructions ..
I want to get up .....
I wanted to come out of hiding this
I wanted to run it as tight-toned
I wanted to shout with a vengeance ...
and say .. "get me out of these chains"
"Lord please show me one sign just"
so I can understand why I'm alive
because I'm sure .. life is for us to be useful to someone else ..
and I wish I lived to make others happy
although I myself was not happy
although here I bury it all ...
and now I'm here alone to try to rise
and tried to smile back.
